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~BarHaifisch:iconBarHaifisch:

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Journal Entry: Sun Mar 16, 2008, 8:49 AM
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: miyavi
  • Drinking: wish i had some drinks
im pathetic. lost and self pitying.
i have nothing to talk about. becuase i am nothing. so i lie. becuase...its what ive always done even since i was little. if i ever grew up at all.
my sister went threw horrors and became a strong bright star. she is so beautiful. and independent. self reliant. its so lovely. im crying. for jealously. for pity. for 'im sorries'.
i want to have her light, her so bright light. i think. if i come out like she did, put me threw these horrors. i don't know if she come to terms with her self abuse. but she is so...bright.
i want to be a light. i bright burning light that is strong and visible. to make a pure innocent smile happen. to be relentlessly. undeniably. BRIGHT.
i have and am. going threw life like motions. i have lost myself a long time ago. i loose reality. what is really important and what is not. i loose my instinct. oh god. its all i have. i want to say. please. but to who??? this is by myself. i have a wall. its building itself up again. i can only cry for so long. not long enough.
selfish. all of it. disgustingly.
.....
so today. i look like shit but i want to...go out and be the light.
its cliche. and its stupid. but fighting a cliche can make me unhappy.

Devious Information

  • Current Residence: Arizona <---EW
  • Interests: Limbs, toes, and bones.
  • Favourite movie: The Science of Sleep, Apparent Horizon , and The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything but acoustic
  • Favourite artist: Too many
  • Favourite style or digital art: It makes you think
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: I was born with an ipod glued to my head

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~howlingcrow:iconhowlingcrow: 2 days 22 hours ago
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*•. .•* 谢谢你~~XD*
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Thank you SO MUCH for the watch my dear friend,I'm very honoured^^Have a nice day!

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~Thomas-Carvings:iconThomas-Carvings: Apr 27, 2008, 11:31:01 PM
Thank you for the fav!
*liedto:iconliedto: Apr 27, 2008, 8:33:47 PM
Thanks for the watch!
~Jaybfly:iconJaybfly: Apr 25, 2008, 12:55:43 AM
thx for the fav

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~devlinne:icondevlinne: Apr 21, 2008, 9:12:23 PM
thank you thank you for the watch!!! <3
~Racoon-sama:iconRacoon-sama: Apr 19, 2008, 2:39:11 AM
Omfg thanks for your comments!
I'm gonna get red ^///^
I am happy, that you like my cosplay : D thank you very much and i'm sorry for my bad english i'm out of practise i think hehehe ^^:
really thank you very much i'm really happy about your comments :3 thihi :heart:

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2. You don't ask any questions!
3. No excuses.
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5. You have to trust Tyler.
*KeroTheHetetic:iconKeroTheHetetic: Apr 13, 2008, 6:12:44 PM
Neh ^^ thank you for the watch, darling <3

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*sergefoglio:iconsergefoglio: Apr 13, 2008, 11:19:00 AM
Hi there.
Sorry for the late reply, but still, thank you for watching me.
Cheers

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ps: I love your ID

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~pinkjellyo:iconpinkjellyo: Apr 12, 2008, 1:10:57 AM
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*•. .•* Thank you!*
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Thank you for the watch^^You draw female body really well! Have a nice day!
~BarHaifisch:iconBarHaifisch: Apr 3, 2008, 5:01:24 PM
hii

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I eat u nowz >:C
=parfhelbelia:iconparfhelbelia: Mar 23, 2008, 3:56:41 AM
Thanks for watching ' w '//

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My English is not very good =w=
~guutti:iconguutti: Mar 12, 2008, 8:54:45 AM
Thanks a lot for the watch! I appreciate it very much ^_^ :heart:

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~Sthenno:iconSthenno: Mar 12, 2008, 3:43:12 AM
Thank you so much for the watch. ^^
~MKage:iconMKage: Feb 17, 2008, 9:24:12 PM
Thanks for the watch~

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~bigbigtruck:iconbigbigtruck: Feb 11, 2008, 6:00:45 PM
Thanks for the watch!
~mintysquirrell:iconmintysquirrell: Jan 22, 2008, 9:26:15 PM
THANKS FOR THE :+fav:!!! x3

:glomp: >8D

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~Tkrmz:iconTkrmz: Jan 22, 2008, 2:47:43 PM
cocaine!

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I feel as though I know you're never gonna let it
And when you've taken down your gaurd...
If I could change your mind...
I'd really love to break your heart

SHOUT!
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que ordeñan cochinillas? no? Pues pudrance
~Grandiloquently:iconGrandiloquently: Jan 19, 2008, 12:57:55 PM
You have a really nice gallery! I like your style.

And what the fug and lol @ your webcam.

Thank you for the watch!

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~Rusted-Silhouette:iconRusted-Silhouette: Jan 17, 2008, 9:39:02 PM
Thank you so much for the fave!
~Sakii-89:iconSakii-89: Jan 17, 2008, 8:50:42 PM
jesus! what the fuck is your webcam? O_o

I want that game!
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